LARA CROFT

ANALYSIS –– _{I could be reading too much into this but the mission that Kayara gives Lara is so reminiscent of her family history. Mother dies of natural circumstances, father filled with grief has an obsession with something as a way to cope (Richard with immortality, and Kayara’s dad with revenge/retribution), and then suffering consequences because they forgot to appreciate the children they were left with. Sound familiar?? I can just imagine Lara’s thought process through this mission and how it all just feels a tad bit too close to home, though, because she’s Lara, she’d prefer not to think about why.} 

ANAYLSIS –– _{the parallels between the past, young lara and present that called out to me most were all the little animals scurrying about. Young Lara has no inclination to hurt them, and no means too. It’s interesting that she remarks on the “strange beasts” right after killing that jaguar and seeming traumatized by it. It’s obvious Lara doesn’t want to hurt the animals, it’s just another way she’s been forced to become something else, to grow up, to survive. More of her innocence just stripped away.} 

_{another thing, is how her whole upbringing in a way, sort of prepared her for the life she was going to lead. she looks at it all through a childlike lens, but it becomes her reality. she remarks her “aim is deadly”, but little does she know just how so. and like!!! it’s everything she dreamed of, but not. it’s kind a nightmare too, because her father was never there, her mother’s gone, she’s started a fucking apocalypse, and so many people she loves are dead (in her mind, because of her). Everything is just… wrong, and if she could go back to when it was all pretend and do it over, you know she would.} 

_{SO I’m playing the part as young Lara, and… trying really hard not to cry because, you see her as this still like… youthful, happy child and you just want her to remain that way. I’m just realizing now that her transformation didn’t start at Yamatai. It started earlier, in her childhood when she lost her dad. It’s so impactful realizing probably, if Lara could change anything, she wouldn’t re-do Yamatai, she’d just save her dad. In her soul, she’s still just that young girl, that saw things she wasn’t supposed to. She just wanted to be able to talk to him, about everything, about her mom. God, if she could do it over… ugh. I’m sad.} 

_{The more I think about it, the more I know for sure Lara’s got to have a lot of Slytherin qualities in her. Her ambition towards her own cause, her readiness to do whatever it takes to achieve her ends (however righteous they are) is remarkable. Consider this a tag drop for my new fourth HP verse. The thing that makes me realize this is when she was asking Jonah how he’d remake the world, and it’s very obvious she’s thinking selfishly (as most people would) and thinking about how much she misses her family, and how she’d go back to spend time with them, possibly save them. Jonah is such a Gryffindor, Hufflepuff type, that it almost acts as a foil to Lara’s more… selfish side, even when she’s the self-martyrying type. It’s kind of complicated, but I hope it made sense.} 

ANALYSIS –– _{in the wake of the tsunami, and the tragedy Lara focuses on the riddle, while Jonah thinks about the people. This to me is a perfect example of part of Lara’s personality. She is a very logic-based person; she likes structure, and following a certain path of action. Emotions, while she feels them deeply, aren’t easy for her to communicate, or to feel and touch on. She prefers action, prefers logic, prefers SOLUTIONS. While helping the people is a solution, it’s not something that would resolve the problem at hand.} 

_{More than that, though, Lara wants to fix what she’s broken. She doesn’t want to focus on the damage she’s caused, not because she’s selfish, but because she bears so much guilt already, that focusing on it would absolutely devastate her. Because of that, she wants to rush to correct the problem, that way she can stop more people from getting hurt, and clear her conscience in the only way she knows how.} 

01 / ?? DOCUMENTS FOUND: _{shadow of the tombraider.} 

_{Could it be? Could he be right?} 

_{Every day I believe I’ve discovered all there is to know about the mystical… call it hubris, I suppose. But this is… if it’s true, it’s my fault. Jonah warned me. My gut warned me, and yet, there was something…} 

_{I couldn’t stop myself from reaching for the dagger, even though I could feel the dread mounting. Now I’ve unleashed an ancient apocalypse on the world…} 

_{It can’t be true. It can’t. Even if I saw it with my own eyes…} 

ANALYSIS –– _{lara, being as she doesn’t frequent a therapist, or if she does, not regularly enough for it to be long-term helpful, struggles a lot with GUILT. survivor’s guilt, daughter’s guilt, friend guilt, killer guilt, all kinds of it. That’s obvious. But in the game, she literally sets the apocalypse rolling, and she has no time to process that, sure, but I can tell you damn well that in the back of her head, that knowledge is there and it’s not easy for her to bear. She keeps feeling like she’s letting her father down, in a sense too, because she can’t manage to pick the right things, to follow the right instincts.} 

_{Journal entry to follow HERE.} 

_{god the scenery is so beautiful… like the colors are so vibrant and its all so GORGEOUS i’m going to have to reply just to be able to take caps and use them as my screensaver!!}